I Love You So Much Always

by Alexandra Scott

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18 songs about love, loss & everything in between that are equal parts joyous, devastating & most of all, relatable. Dreamabilly folk-pop chanteuse Alexandra Scott's stunning vocals brim with passion & fragile honesty.

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released December 23, 2013

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Alexandra Scott New Orleans, Louisiana

Alexandra Scott is a freewheeling, independently-powered, neo-country surrealist. She grew up on a cattle farm in Virginia & cut her teeth gigging as a teenager in East Coast music scene, paying homage to Suzanne Vega, The Replacements, Waylon Jennings, & early R.E.M.; then one day she packed up her truck & moved to New Orleans, where she's been happily ever after. ... more

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Track Name: To Get Over
To Get Over

The moon is full tonight and I’d do anything to get over, to get over, to get over
Start to walk tonight, walk across the Great Divide to get over, to get over
Songs to fill the spaces, I just love the way they sound
The weight I bear’s too heavy, dear, I’m tired of dragging it around

On the other side there’s another deep ravine to get over, to get over, to get over
On the other side there’s another shining bridge to get over, to get over
If I die this moment I won’t die unsatisfied
Drink my fill of water but the well will not run dry

The history of the mystery, of every time you kissed me, to get over, to get over, to get over
I’ll fight & run & burn, I will shut my mouth & learn to get over, to get over
To get over, to get over, to get over, to get over.
Track Name: Smell Of Cut Grass
Smell of Cut Grass

Careful, California, won’t you come home?
When you do I’ll be standing, dancing, cooking on the stove
You don’t know what you’re missing, caught up in your wishing
Always in a rush & feeling out of touch & living like a thorn on a rose
You’re missing all your joy

A dream that keeps repeating, a song in your head
Think about all those nights that we spent lying in your bed
Try to get it back, filling in the cracks, watch it slip away, start to decay
You remember the way that you felt but not just what you said

Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass
Just has to happen, doesn’t have to last
Doesn’t have to last, doesn’t have to last
Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass

Goodnight, Carolina, see you down the road
Been a long time since we’ve talked & we’re working on overload
Living on nerves, hitting all the curves, sleep won’t come & it leaves you numb
What am I gonna do with a life that never seems to slow?


Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass
Just has to happen, doesn’t have to last
Doesn’t have to last, doesn’t have to last
Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass

Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass
If you don’t know then you just have to ask
Just have to ask, just have to ask
Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass

But when I see you come walking sad-eyed and tired
Earth-shaking, heart-breaking, walking on a wire
Make a little space to lie down for a while & talk about nothing at all
I want to find the same feeling that we found at the start
Shut out the world and climb inside your heart
Baby baby baby, in the beautiful dark
Take me in your ever-loving arms

Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass
Just has to happen, doesn’t have to last
Doesn’t have to last, doesn’t have to last
Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass

Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass
If you don’t know then you just have to ask
Just have to ask, just have to ask
Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass

Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass
If you don’t know then you just have to ask
Just have to ask, just have to ask
Smell of cut grass, smell of cut grass
Track Name: Coney Island Baby
Coney Island Baby

The devil to the right of you, the devil that’s inside of you
The worm, the man, the moon, the tree
The cloud, the wheat, the sky, the ground
Cherry orchards that abound
And drums that beat and marching feet and angels

He’s a rambler, denizen of darkness
Coney Island baby, born again at Christmas
Waiting for the sunset, given up to silence
Ever made of sweetness, creature of the bright night time

The devil walking down the road, the devil come to bless my soul
Take me far away from this and scatter all my poker chips
Sweet serpent kiss that boils my blood and
Makes me now surrender

He’s a rambler, denizen of darkness
Coney Island baby, born again at Christmas
Waiting for the sunset, given up to silence
Ever made of sweetness, creature of the bright night time

Take me down, take me down, take me down
Take me down, dark star

He’s a rambler, denizen of darkness
Coney Island baby, born again at Christmas
Waiting for the sunset, given up to silence
Ever made of sweetness, creature of the bright night
He’s a rambler, denizen of darkness
Coney Island baby, born again at Christmas
Waiting for the sunset, given up to silence
Ever made of sweetness, creature of the bright night time
Track Name: Gas Station Lover
Gas Station Lover

Gas station lover, I know you don’t expect when you ask me out to dinner
I’ll do anything but reject your offer
You look at me & you say “Wow” just before you ask me out
It’s a rough old world & it’s nice to feel appreciated
One day when I win the Powerball with a ticket that you sold me
Cause I know you give me all the lucky numbers
I’ll write you a big six-figure check
You can quit your job, take some nice girl out
And while you take her dancing, I’ll play my piano, oh, oh, oh.

Gas station lover, you ask about my boyfriend.
Well, I don’t have a boyfriend. I lied because you were so persistent
asking me to dinner but now I’m fascinated with my imaginary boyfriend.
You ask me, “Does he know he’s lucky?” and I smile and say
“Oh yes, he knows he’s lucky.” Then I take my Lotto ticket
and I leave you there behind your counter
but someday I’ll surprise you and say, “Thank you
for making me feel beautiful. I was having a totally shitty day
and I still don’t want to go out with you, I just wanted you to know,
I just wanted you to know, and one day, one day,
one day when I win the Powerball with a ticket that you sold me
Cause I know you give me all the lucky numbers
I’ll write you a big six-figure check
You can quit your job, take some nice girl out
And while you take her dancing, I’ll play my piano, oh, oh, oh.

Gas station lover, I know you don’t expect when you ask me out to dinner
I’ll do anything but reject your offer
You look at me & you say “Wow” just before you ask me out
It’s a rough old world & it’s nice to feel appreciated
Track Name: Sorrow On A White Horse
Sorrow On A White Horse

If you tell me that’s what you are, I’ll believe you and be sorry
If you tell me anything, tell me your true name
I am sorrow on a white horse, I go riding through the darkness
With the sound of tears behind from whence I came

If you tell me that’s who you are, I’ll believe you and be sorry
And our constant conversations, they will come to an end
I am sorrow on a white horse, I go riding through the darkness
And I ride to be with you again, my friend

Never think for an instant
that you were anything but nectar to the bee
Never say I didn’t love you
Never say that to me

Will you meet me by the willow where we played when we were children,
Where we moved our feet to music and to sorcery?
I am sorrow on a white horse, I go riding through the darkness
I have come, I have come to set you free
I am sorrow on a white horse, I go riding through the darkness
I have come, I have come to set you free
I am sorrow on a white horse, I go riding through the darkness
I have come, I have come to set you free
Track Name: If I Go To Heaven
If I Go To Heaven

If I go to heaven, hope I sleep in a king-size bed and
If I go to heaven, hope I see every dog I ever had and
If I go to heaven, hope I don’t go without my friends cause
everything I’ve done, right or wrong, would’ve meant nothing if it weren’t for them

But first I gotta get to the holy place
make it through the world without falling from grace
so I won’t be ashamed to show my face
if it turns out that there’s days beyond days
love beyond love, space beyond space
I’ll be the first to say that I’m amazed



Don’t know much about heaven
If there’s a heaven then I think it’s right here and
If I go to heaven will the grass & trees & sun & sky
and all the things I loved while living disappear?

But first I gotta get to the holy place
make it through the world without falling from grace
so I won’t be ashamed to show my face
if it turns out that there’s days beyond days
love beyond love, space beyond space
I’ll be the first to say that I’m amazed

You can sing along and get the words all wrong
But it’s the sweetest song, the sweetest song
It’s the sweetest song that you ever heard
You can cry in the night and think you’re alone
Then you find there’s love that you didn’t know
It’s the sweetest song that you ever heard

If I go to heaven I won’t be lost, I’m gonna recognize
Cause I ain’t a believer but I ain’t no fool
And I been walking this world with open eyes
I’ve seen tragedy, I’ve heard melody, I’ve heard babies cry
I saw my dog die
And we have all been in heaven, we have all been in hell
We have all been born, we are all gonna die

But first we gotta get to the holy place
make it through the world without falling from grace
so we won’t be ashamed to show our face
if it turns out that there’s days beyond days
love beyond love, space beyond space
I’ll be the first to say that I’m amazed
if I go to heaven.
Track Name: Stranger
Stranger

When I came as a stranger to the city of New Orleans
When I came as a stranger at the end of my childhood
How tenderly she recognized that my soul was in danger
And restored to me my home, when I came as a stranger

There is fog on the river and the river is my sister
And the devil’s beside us and his eyes are so bright
And we are walking together cause we love one another
There are ghosts at our table, they are feasting tonight

When I came as a stranger to the city of New Orleans
When I came as a stranger at the end of my childhood
How tenderly she recognized that my soul was in danger
And restored to me my home, when I came as a stranger

For my heart is in exile, for I am no man’s daughter
For I’m humbled and human by the wind and the rain
For the sake of my mother, for the sake of my brother
For the ponies and horses that are shaking their manes

When I came as a stranger to the city of New Orleans
When I came as a stranger at the end of my childhood
How tenderly she recognized that my soul was in danger
And restored to me my home, when I came as a stranger
Track Name: Elvis
Elvis

If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me
If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me
In this world of sorrow, no man is free
If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me

I wish I were a black bear in the hills of Tennessee
I wish I were a black bear in the hills of Tennessee
I wish I were an albatross covering the sea
Giant wings, cannot walk
Words, words, cannot talk

If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me
If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me
In this world of sorrow, no man is free
If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me

The hardest thing for us to do is let each other be
The hardest thing for us to do is let each other be
And who will eat the fruit of the heavenly tree?
No war’s a righteous war and oil is not worth dying for

If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me
If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me
In this world of sorrow, no man is free
If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me

The white-winged dove John Lennon & the seagull Neil Young
sing ‘Though we may be terrified, we can still be strong.
Even though we have no voices, anyone can sing.
Hey hey, my my, rock & roll can never die
Hey hey, my my, rock & roll can never die
Hey hey, my my, rock & roll can never die
Hey hey, my my, rock & roll can never die”

If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me
If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me
If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me
In this world of sorrow, no man is free
If you don’t love Elvis you don’t love me
Track Name: That Honey
That Honey

What are we doing? Who are we fooling, stealing through the streets
in the dark with no shoes on?
Gotta keep moving, finding something new,
but there’s a little place inside that wants to stick like glue
and I hope you don’t mind, hope you don’t mind
I want to have that honey all the time
I don’t want sugar and I don’t want wine
I want to have that honey all the time
I want to have that honey all the time

We get out of bed but we just get fed up
Try and try again but wind up lonely in a bathtub
I cannot do that much, it doesn’t feel like love
Maybe I’m just greedy but I’m holding out for the good stuff
holding out for the good stuff
and I hope you don’t mind, hope you don’t mind
I want to have that honey all the time
I don’t want sugar and I don’t want wine
I want to have that honey all the time
I want to have that honey all the time
that comes from the secret place in your mind
inspiration, dedication
born of the treasure we hide and despise
lamentation, revelation
caterpillar to butterfly
and I and I and I and I
I hope you don’t mind, hope you don’t mind
I want to have that honey all the time
I don’t want sugar and I don’t want wine
I want to have that honey all the time
I want to have that honey all the time
Track Name: I'm On Fire
I’m On Fire

Hey, little girl, is your daddy home?
Did he go and leave you all alone now?
Oh, I got a bad desire
Oh, I’m on fire

Tell me now, baby, is he good to you?
Can he do to you the things I don’t do now?
Oh, I can take you higher
Oh, I’m on fire

Sometimes it’s like someone took a knife, baby, edgy and dull
And cut a six-inch valley through the middle of my skull
At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet
And a freight train running through the middle of my head
Only you, you cool my desire
Oh, I’m on fire
Oh, I’m on fire
Oh, I’m on fire
Track Name: La Vie Est Vaine
La vie est vaine,
Un peu d’amour,
Un peu de haine,
Et puis—Bonjour!

La vie est brève:
Un peu d’espoir,
Un peu de rève
Et puis—Bon soir!
Track Name: Little Black Cloud
Little Black Cloud

Oh little black cloud, what have you done to my heart?
One-night stand, foreign land, I can’t understand
how you became my shining star.
It’s never gonna be the same, never gonna be the same again
never gonna be the same like it was.

Oh little black cloud, what have you done to my eyes?
They used to sparkle like a diamond, like Orion’s belt a-shining
Now I’m always crying
It’s never gonna be the same, never gonna be the same again
never gonna be the same like it was.
It’s never gonna be the same, never gonna be the same again
never gonna be the same because
here it comes, the one we all come running to
here it comes, the one we’ve all been waiting for
here it comes, it hasn’t even started yet
and I want more.

Oh little black cloud, what have you done to my heart?
Something woke me up this morning
It was you and you were storming dark
It’s never gonna be the same, never gonna be the same again,
never gonna be the same like it was
It’s never gonna be the same, never gonna be the same again,
never gonna be the same because
here it comes, the one we all come running to
here it comes, the one we’ve all been waiting for
here it comes, it hasn’t even started yet
and I want more
oh, little black cloud.
Track Name: My Moonbeam
My Moonbeam

I want to walk outside when the moon’s all bright
Through the canyon land in the dazzling light
In the dark you say, “I’m gonna go and find her”
But I move across the ground like a sidewinder

Tell me what’s a girl to do when I know my heart is true
And I sing my heart for you?
If you really listen you can hear my voice singing
Sounds just like the wind in the pines
My moonbeam, my moonbeam

I got an angel face and a dirty mouth
Got a guitar on my back, I can take it out
And play a song so fine that the mountain lions
Come on down from the hills just to nestle by my side

Tell me what’s a girl to do when I know my heart is true
And I sing my heart for you?
If you really listen you can hear my voice singing
Sounds just like the wind in the high & lonesome

Don’t let go, just breathe slowly
Don’t let go, I hold you tight
Don’t let go, I kiss you boldly
Walk into the dark of the night
Walk into the dark of the night with me

Cause I got eyes that see like a hunting owl
And it’s a mystery that we don’t fall down
With the wolf and the raven in the canyon land
Can you walk with me? Will you be my friend?

Tell me what’s a girl to do when I know my heart is true
and I sing my heart for you?
If you really listen you can hear my voice singing
sounds just like the wind in the high & lonesome
If you really listen you can hear my voice singing
sounds just like the wind in the high & lonesome pines.
Track Name: Clam Crab Cockle Cowrie
Clam Crab Cockle Cowrie

That means ‘no’ where I come from. I am cold out waiting for the day to come. I chew my lips, oh, and I scratch my nose - feels so good to be a rose. Oh now don’t, don’t you lift me up like I’m that shy, no no no no no, just give it up. There are bats all dissolving in a row into the wishy-washy dark that cannot let go – and I cannot let go. So I thank the Lord, oh, and I thank his sword, though it be mincing up the morning slightly bored. Oh, now morning without warning like a hole – oh, and I watch you go.
There are some mornings when the sky looks like a road. There are some dragons who were built to have and hold, and some machines were dropped from great heights lovingly – and some great bellies ache with many bumblebees, and they sting so terribly.
I do as I please. Now I’m on my knees, and your skin is something that I stir into my tea, and I am watching you, and you are starry starry starry. And I’m tumbling down, and I check a frown. It’s why I love this town. Just look around and see me celebrated hourly, serenaded sourly, dedicated dourly, waltzing with the open sea: clam, crab, cockle, cowrie – oh, would you just look at me!
Track Name: Your Shirt Is A Window
Your Shirt Is A Window

Your shirt is a window I keep falling,
falling into
Your shirt is a window I keep falling,
falling into
I should never have let you get on that plane without me
Should’ve stayed beside you
when the train took off while we were kissing

My song is a lonely little song that I will sing
When I’m alone and thinking of you
You’ll fall for the first girl that you’ll fall for after me
And I’ll keep on falling for you
I should never have let you get on that plane without me
Should’ve stayed beside you
when the train took off while we were kissing
while we were kissing, while we were kissing
and when I asked you how you knew you loved me
you just pointed at your chest and said, “I just do,
I just do”
and when you asked me the same question
I gave you the exact same answer
Some things are so simple and so true

Your shirt is a window I keep falling,
falling into
Still smells like your body so I wear it to bed,
falling into
I should never have let you get on that plane without me
Should’ve stayed beside you
when the train took off while we were kissing
Track Name: Hymn
Hymn

Yes, yes
The dark rolls in early
Night falls when it’s afternoon
Yes, yes
Branches are barren
Black limbs against a night sky of velvet blue
Oh yes, oh yes
The green will return
Blossom swell when the earth’s blessed
And we will rejoice in the colors
Of spring when the whole world says yes.
Track Name: Gas Station Lover (Radio Edit)
Gas Station Lover

Gas station lover, I know you don’t expect when you ask me out to dinner
I’ll do anything but reject your offer
You look at me & you say “Wow” just before you ask me out
It’s a rough old world & it’s nice to feel appreciated
One day when I win the Powerball with a ticket that you sold me
Cause I know you give me all the lucky numbers
I’ll write you a big six-figure check
You can quit your job, take some nice girl out
And while you take her dancing, I’ll play my piano, oh, oh, oh.

Gas station lover, you ask about my boyfriend.
Well, I don’t have a boyfriend. I lied because you were so persistent
asking me to dinner but now I’m fascinated with my imaginary boyfriend.
You ask me, “Does he know he’s lucky?” and I smile and say
“Oh yes, he knows he’s lucky.” Then I take my Lotto ticket
and I leave you there behind your counter
but someday I’ll surprise you and say, “Thank you
for making me feel beautiful. I was having a totally crappy day
and I still don’t want to go out with you, I just wanted you to know,
I just wanted you to know, and one day, one day,
one day when I win the Powerball with a ticket that you sold me
Cause I know you give me all the lucky numbers
I’ll write you a big six-figure check
You can quit your job, take some nice girl out
And while you take her dancing, I’ll play my piano, oh, oh, oh.

Gas station lover, I know you don’t expect when you ask me out to dinner
I’ll do anything but reject your offer
You look at me & you say “Wow” just before you ask me out
It’s a rough old world & it’s nice to feel appreciated